bad blogger

Ok so I admit it. I'm a bad blogger. I am totally lazy and lack the discipline to keep a blog going. Yet some how here it is. I haven't taken any pictures in the last few days. We have been busy. Hubby is home for a few days so we have been just chillin' or out buying stuff either for his truck or for our vacation. I'm going to wait until at least valentines day weekend!! I am going to do my best for the next 3 weeks to NOT STRAY away from my eating. Also to do a min of 30 mins on the treadmill everyday. Starting monday of course....

I've lost my creative edge the last few days. AGAIN! I am in desperate need to make my sister a baby blanket. Baby #3 is due in less then 8 weeks. I want to make something special for this one. Like a sweater and hat! and a blanket and maybe a few toys. I not a great Aunt....Love my niece and nephew but I don't even know them.... sucks living 10 hours away.

Ok so here is a few pictures I love that I took in the last few years. Since I've neglected to take anything recently....

Marriage and babies...

There is nothing I want more at this time in my life than to get married and have another baby... BUT I can't do that on my own. My boyfriend, of 9 years, has a phobia I think. Every once in awhile I get my hopes up and then get depressed. So I just don't care anymore.

Recently I've been nagged and nagged and nagged about when we are having another. Well guess what. NOT NOW! We have a beautiful 5 year old boy. We love each other and after being together for 9 years, it necessary.

Yes I want to marry this man. Yes I want more kids with this man. I am only 27 years old. I still have time. I'm just getting really really REALLY tired of people asking. SO STOP ASKING!!! Or teasing. Just cause everyone else (ok, not everyone) has a perfect life. Marriage, then kids, blah blah blah!

So then my family is being retarded. My mom has pretty much made it clear that her husbands kids are more important. WHATEVER! Can't stand her husband! They've talked about moving out here and I DO NOT want it to happen. I can't handle them that close. Yes I love my mom. Yes I would like to see her more than once every 2 years. But NO I do not want her close enough to show up for coffee. I've told I don't know how many times how much I'd like them to come for a visit. Or for her to come. She doesn't work. But she won't come without HIM. There is always some excuse.

My dad was MIA for 4 days. He apparently forgot to pay his phone bill. It makes me so mad. Why the hell can't you afford to pay a $50 phone bill. Too many drugs? Too much alcohol? I just don't get it. He was supposed to call me... that was on monday....its now thursday and no phone call...

I'm just SO frustrated with everyone! Leave me alone! seriously!
I'm at the point where I don't want to answer the phone. I don't want to be around anyone. I want to take my son and run away from everyone that I know or am related too.

A photo a day...Jan 27 2010

Here is my photo for the day. Yes this is my child! Yes he is really this weird. LOL.

A photo a day...Jan 26 2010

Since I claim to be a 'photographer' I thought I would start my Photo-A-Day again. Took a bit of a break. Need something that I can look forward to everyday! So since I've missed "a few" days of photos I'll post a few.

This is my son skating for the first time. I have to get him one of those stands. The rink does not provide them. And he is afraid to go on the ice without them.

This is my wreath on my front door after the 3 days of ice fog that we had last week.

Our WEIRD dog, Zoey. She sits on her butt like that all the time. And she spends alot of time with her chin resting on the window sill looking outside.

Zoey again be WEIRD. Weirdest dog I have ever owned.

AND HERE IS MY PHOTO FOR TODAY! ok so there is two pictures for today

My Bags....

Here is the bag I made for me. It was designed for Artemis Adornments. Click the link if you are a crocheter and you would like to make it. It is a free pattern.

This is the one I made for my sister in law. I like hers better. Lol. Still like mine too ....

You're not alone.....

Love this song!

I have to share

I received this email from a friend and LAUGHED my head off cause its exactly what my husband says every time we see the commercial and my son says "hey its the sham WOW guy!". So this is what the email said.....
My experience with the Slap Chop!!!
Ok so I got a slapchop Christmas..........

This dirty son of a bitch Vince convinced me that this invention would save time, and help me eat healthy.
Fuck Vince and his goddamn chopped nuts,fettuccine, linguine, martini, bikini.
Let me tell you what this holy terror of a kitchen utensil does.....absolutely nothing.

Let's look at a few things:

1. This thing is made of plastic and has a sharp blade hooked to a spring and a plunger.

This is a poor combination to begin with.

2. The slapchop is about the size of a coffee grinder, which means to you need to slapchop size your food prior to actually using the slapchop. In order to do that you need a knife, if I have a knife in my hand already I may as well chop the damn vegetable right then and there.

3. One slap for large sizes, 2 to slaps for smaller sizes, three slaps for a fine dice....fuck you VINCE!

Here's what it actually goes like!! One slap, twist and pry on plunger because vegetable is wedged in the cutting mechanism. Two slaps, still fucking wedged and no smaller than the last slap.... why? because the fucking blade didn't actually cut just did a quarter turn with potato stuffed inside. Three slaps, another quarter turn and now your potato is wedged so far into the fucking machine the plunger won't come out.

Now since the veg is stuffed deep inside this devil contraption you must now take the damn thing apart, easier said than done. Vince says "its easy as one two three" FUCK YOU AGAIN VINCE!

It's easy to take apart sans potato stuffing however once those blades are full it becomes more difficult.

Picture this, a slapchop full of potato, the plunger is stuffed all the way to the bottom so you can't undo the top part, and it won't turn enough to pry the bottom protector part off.

Now keep in mind that this contraption has a sharp fucking blade in using your fingers to pry out the potato chunks is ill advised.
What do you do? Three cut fingers and 7 band-aids later, Get a tool if because you already had to cut your vegetable to slapchop size , you just happen to have a knife close by.
It only makes sense to use that to dig out the jammed veg.

Ahem... Caution at this point the slapchop is no longer a slapchop, it suddenly becomes a spring loaded vegetable cannon!

As soon as you wiggle a tiny piece of the vegetable in question out of harms way you can fully expect to get showered in large chunks of potato (or onion, or peppers)...remember these are large chunks that fly fast and hard....because this stupid device still hasn't actually CUT ANYTHING!

I am going to personally kill the man that invented this goddamn fact I'm going to use it on his nuts....because Vince says it works great on fact so well he says that we are going to love his nuts.

I bet this stupid son-of-a-bitch has a SNUGGIE as well.....



So needless to say...After seeing this would you buy one? NOT ME!!! Thought it was a waist of money before. Now I really think so...

creative block, etc

The last few days I've had severe creativity block (like writers block) I don't seem to have anything in me. But I'm blaming this nagging back ache/head ache/neck ache that I've been suffering with. So I've decided that I'm going to make my self a few bags. Since I NEVER make myself anything....I'm so bad. Constantly making things for others......Which I have a plan to make two bags for my friends. They both have bag So this is the bag I'm making....
Except I'm making it in grey, purple, saphire blue, and dark blue. For my sister in law I'm going to make it cream and greens and maybe tan. For my friend Teresa I'm going to make it black, tan, cream, and red. I'll post pics when I'm done! :D

So since I've complete my CT duties for this set of kits I've been sitting here waiting patiently for the next set to come out. Making a layout here and there. I love free things and I get excited knowing that I'm going to get more. Love digiscrap! Yes I said it again! Can't wait to start the next set.

So this weekend I must start going through my sons clothes and figuring out what I need to get him for out vacation. I bought him dress pants and brought them home and found out the are TOO can a size 6 dress pant be smaller then a size 6 regular pants???!?!?!?! So tired of nothing ever been uniform. So I have to take them back and try to find him something else. Wish we had a decent used store here. I also REALLY REALLY REALLY need to get back on the wagon and lose 10lbs and then find some clothes to wear on the cruise! I have a few things that will fit if I lose a dress size but Still working on it..... :D

Night! Have a good weekend....If I finish my bag(s) I'll be back to post pics....

what are friends for....

We were sitting here watching tv when the phone rings. It was about 9 pm. It was a mom of a child I babysit (a friend). Her 2 year old daughter swollowed a pill that she thought her roommate(a 34 year old handicapped woman) had taken. She asked if I could go to her place and sit with the roommate while she took her daughter to the hospital. So its now midnight and I've been home for about 20 minutes. I'm exhausted. Want to cry. Have a headache. But happy that my little Paytyn is ok. All I can think about is what would I do if I live where she does. 20 mins out of town. No family near by. OH WAIT! I do! My closes family is 5 hours away. My 'friends' are pretty much no existant or live 5-9 hours away. What the hell would I do if I had more than one kid and had to take one to the hospital in the middle of the night and Doug was away. What would I do if I had to go to the hospital. My son is only 5. He can't stay home alone.

Ok I need to get some sleep cause I feel like crap and I'm so HAPPY that tomorrow is Friday! Night All! Maybe tomorrow I'll get some time to do some more scrapping.....

what a day

So today was a nice quiet day. My son and husband went to the next town with my brother in law to pick up some furniture. So I did some scrap booking, had a nap, and just relaxed. Yet I still feel like crap. I've had a headache all day. My neck is hurting. The nap made me feel groggy. Man I want to feel human again.

Ok so this is what I made today.

This is Paytyn. A little girl I babysit. She is SO cute.
This is my son when he was a baby. Man I miss those days.

Both these kits were made with Whispers of Love from designer CuddleBeez Scraps
Love Love Love her work. Check it out!

I'm a bad mom...

First I'll start by telling you how bad my after noon was and how bad a mom I am. My son goes to school from 8:30-3:20. I run a dayhome so on school days I normally have to pack up all the kids to take my son to school. Well yesterday my husband was home and he took him to school in the morning and then came home and went to sleep. Well....he's a very deep sleeper. So I tried a few times through out the day to wake him up. Then about 3:40 I went into the bedroom and he woke up and was like "what time is it?"
I said "its almost 4"
He was like "where's Austin?"
And like an idiot I said " OH SHIT, I FORGOT!"
I FORGOT my 5 year old son at school. He was supposed to be picked up 25 mins before. OMG! I felt HORRIBLE.
So Doug got up and watched the dayhome kids while I FLEW to the school to get my son. He was practically the only kid left in the school. Won't be doing that again.....

But since everyone I told has told me that I'm not the only one. It happens alot. Someone told me that someone they know went shopping at Ikea, put their kid in the daycare and forgot they were there. Now they live in a town that is almost 2 hours away from the city that Ikea was in. The got home and realized what they had done and had to drive back. Now I'm sure that parent was FREAKING out....

HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN YOUR CHILD SOMEWHERE? Leave me a comment and tell me about it!!!!

Ok so here is my newest layout for CuddleBeez Scraps. I'm really in love with her stuff. This kit is called Polly Anna. I've of course used it for a boy.
You can purchase this kit at Bouquet of Pixels. It is currently on sale so hurry and get it. I think I might have to make a blog background with this one. Love these colors.

So on to the next layout which will be made with the kit Whispers of Love. Also can be purchased at Bouquet of Pixels. Click here to go directly to the kit.

My very first layout for Cuddlebeez

I'm so excited to be a part of Cuddlebeez CT. I couldn't even leave it 24hours before I made my first layout. So here it is.
This is from a kit called Marmelade. It will be for sale at Boutique of Pixels.
Now I am going to work on a few layouts with the other two kits. Very much in love with Cuddlebeez kits. They are all so well put together and beautiful.


I've had an exciting few days. #1 My hubby came home #2 He brought with him my much wanted The New Super Mario Bros. for Wii #3 We picked up our NEW 46" LCD TV!!! and what has me so excited today #4 I've recently been notified that I am going to be a part of CuddleBeez Scraps creative team, and I AM SUPER DUPER EXCITED.

On a sad note. I've recently discovered that 'tempt my tummy tuesdays' is not an original thing. Its all over the place GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. So its no more. Stay tuned for another idea. I guess.... maybe manic munchie monday's or temptation thursday's.

Ok so now that that is out I going to show you another page that I've recently made. There will be many many more! :D This was thanksgiving. Being in Canada it is right near Halloween. Most of the pics were taken at a local corn maze. You have to go through it in the dark. SO much fun. But MAN was it cold. I think it was about -18 that night! So stay tuned for the next couple of days to see MORE new scrapbooking stuff. I'm so excited and can't wait to see what I get to work with.....

a new diet

With 34 days left until we go on vacation I'm going to start a new diet. I weighed in this morning at 196lbs. YIKES. Its very heartbreaking. I HATE IT! So this new diet is used at hospitals to help people lose weight very quick so they can have surgery. I'm going to try until we go on vacation. They say in the first week you can lose 7-10lbs. If I can lose 15-20 in the next 5 weeks I'd be happy. Then while on vacation and while home I'll just work to keep it off. I'm desperate at this point and will try almost anything expect starving myself. So here is the diet. Give it a shot if you want its kinda nasty but it does work!

Day 1

Day 2

Day 3


Black Coffee or Tea

1/2 Grapefruit or Juice

1 Slice of Dry Toast

1 Tbsp. of Peanut Butter


Black Coffee or Tea

1 Egg

1 Slice of Dry Toast

1/2 Banana


Black Coffee or Tea

5 Saltine Crackers

1 Oz. of Cheddar Cheese

1 Small Apple


Black Coffee or Tea

1/2 Cup of Tuna

1 Slice of Dry Toast or 1 Oz. of Cheddar Cheese


Black Coffee or Tea

1 Cup of Cottage Cheese or 1/2 Cup of Tuna

5 Saltine Crackers


Black Coffee or Tea

1 Hard-Boiled Egg

1 Slice of Dry Toast


3 Oz. any Lean Meat

1 Cup String Beans

1 Cup Carrots or Beets

1 Small Apple

1 Cup Vanilla Ice Cream


2 Beef Franks

1 Cup Cabbage or Broccoli

1/2 Cup Carrots or Turnip Greens

1/2 Banana

1/2 Cup Vanilla Ice Cream


1 Cup Tuna

1 Cup Beans or Cauliflower

1 Cup Carrots or Beets

1 Cup Melon

1/2 Cup Vanilla Ice Cream

Ok so it says you should lose up to 10lbs in the first 3 days. And if you want to lose more than you eat responsibly for 4 days and then repeat the diet. Wish me luck. I'll need the willpower not to cheat!

Lovin' digiscrap

In love. I've been playing around with alot of the freebies that I've downloaded. This is another page I came up with for my sons 5th Birthday that happened recently. I think I'm going to be super addicted to this. I'm loving everything I've done so far. Which is odd cause I've kinda gone through a bit of a not artistic week. Hit the wall. Very tired lately though so that could have something to do with it. Even at this moment I'm think about laying down on the couch for half an hour. And let the kids play. I'm a bad babysitter.....

feeling sad

I'm sitting here this morning very cranky. All I want to do is to crawl into bed and sleep. I realized that the only time I'm happy these days is when I'm alone! Which is not very often. It makes me cry to come to that realization. I don't want my child in my face 24/7. I can't handle it anymore. I never get a break from him(or the children I babysit) When he's at school I have a housefull. Once in the last 5 years I have been able to stay home ALONE with nobody to bug me. Its very hard to deal with. No family to help out. No wonder I'm tired all the time. By the time I get Austin in bed, asleep, and I get to relax and get some alone time, its 10 pm. Then I watch a show or two and then its midnight. Then I have to get ready for bed and acutally go to sleep...12:30-1.....Then up at 7.....6-7hours of sleep is NOT enough. No wonder I can't loose weight. I'm stressed, exhausted, and depresssed.

My introduction to digiscrap.....

So I've recently been introduced to the world of digital scrap booking. Before I loved to scrap but did not have the patience to print pics, cut paper, glue fancy things. AND ITS SO EXPENSIVE.

I downloaded a program called Its a free program that you can download and use. Its apparently very similar some of the fancy expensive programs.

There is a ton of free scrap kits, embellishment, papers, tools on the internet. Four of my favorite sites are

I downloaded Rebecca B's Captain Christopher stuff and this is what I made with it.

I've just started with the digital scrapping but LOVE IT so far.... stay tuned for more....

Does anyone read my blog???

I'm starting to feel rather alone here. No comments, no nothing. Not sure if anyone is even reading this. what to do.....what to do.....

Tempt My Tummy Tuesday's.....Play Dough

Welcome to Tempt My Tummy Tuesday's. This week I've to make something that is NOT edible. Since I'm on a diet and all. I don't need to be tempting my tummy. And if I make something I'll eat it! So this week I'm made play dough!

This is what you need
1/2 cup of flour
1/2 cup of water
1 tsp creme of tartar
1/4 cup of salt
1 tbsp cooking oil
food coloring

1. In a small pot combine all ingredients

2. mix the food coloring with the oil and water before mixing with the rest. Color mixes better.

3. Mix thoroughly. It will be gummy and like a thick paste

4. Turn heat on low and stir continuously

5. Mixture will start to form a ball. Once all play dough has formed a ball place on counter and kneed until smooth. Roll in a ball and let cool. Store in an airtight container in the fridge!

Make all types of colors!

I've come to the conclusion...

I've come to the conclusion that I have no friends. Ok, so thats a lie. I have friends. Just the ones I want to hang out with live minimum 5 hours away. How the hell am I supposed to be happy and do things when I have nobody to do them with. My one friend that lives close has no drivers license, two kids, and a husband. So, its pretty boring doing stuff when I the one that always hasto drive. I don't have "the girls" to go have a drink with. I don't have anyone I can call up and say "hey, wanna go to a movie tonight"

Some where I've lost myself...or rather I'm starting to feel like there never was a me... or barely. I was dutiful daughter. Did everything by the book. Until I hit 18. Lived with my parents til I was 20 and then moved to a completely different city into a house with my boyfriend and his friends. And became dutiful gf. So.....when was I "me". Is this "me"? Is this all there is to me?

I was talking to my sister today and something clicked. Not once in my entire life has my opinion mattered. I can talk until I'm blue in the face, but does anyone even hear me? I don't know how many times someone has asked me my opinion. Listened. Or rather pretended to listen. And then did the complete opposite of what I suggested. So if I seem quiet, its because I feel like there is no need to talk.

I feel like I've lost myself. Like I've lost who I wanted to be. Nothing is ever about me. Weather its supposed to be or not. Its always about someone else. I know that makes me selfish, but when is it my time to be in the spotlight.......ever?

I hate shoes....

For at least the last 6 months I've suffered from severe pain in my heals and the edge of my foot. The pain is normally only first thing in the morning. And after walking for 5 minutes the pain goes away. Well within the last 3 months it started happening if I sit on the couch for any length of time and then get up to do something. I would hobble around the house like a 90 year old.


So today I went to a podiatrist to have my feet looked at. My family doctor had said its Planters faciatis (spelling is way off) So the podiatrist made me do a few things and checked my feet out and everything. He said yes thats what it is. I have to do calf raises. So I have to stand on the edge of the stairs and lower my heal down and raise up on my tippy toes 30 times on both feet and 30 times on each foot.... TWICE A DAY! There's a work out all on its own..... Plus....
I have to go buy good shoes....
bye bye walmart shoes :( so cheap.....
and I have to wear these shoes every waking minute. WHAT!


So not only do my feet hurt, I have to wear the dreaded shoes and do MORE exercises everyday. :( He also said I shouldn't run on the treadmill until my feet are better....
They could never be better.....

So I'm kinda bummed out today and all I want to do is eat chocolate and lay on the couch.
But I'm going to put my shoes on. Do my exercises and then go lay in bed and read....

Currently reading Nora Roberts, The Heart's Victory.....about car racing....sorta....

Well now that I'm done with my I go.....Ciao!

Tempt My Tummy Tuesday's.....Skor Bar

So its Tuesday. I've neglected my blogging duties for awhile BUT I'm back! So this is what I was going to post right before Christmas. Its home made skor bar. Very YUMMY! and....very bad for you! Very simple to make. You need 1 cup of sugar, 1 cup of margarine(MUST BE MARGARINE, butter DOES NOT work!) and about 1/2 a package of chocolate chips(I use semisweet but use what ever you normally would use for cookies)

So this is my first attempt (forgot I used margarine last year)

And this is what it turned into...LOL The sugar dissolved and then recrytalized or something. It was nasty!
Second attempt.... with margarine. Place sugar and margarine in a pot and cook on low until bubbly.

It will look very bubbly and almost sponge like. At this point you must stir it constantly as the bubbles cause it to rise and it will spill out of the pot....

Then it will start turning brown.

Once its brown you put it on a cookie sheet and spread it around. The thinner you spread it the more you get and the easier it is to break once cool.

While still hot(and it stays hot for a long time) put about 1/2 a bag of chocolate chips on it. Let them sit for a few minutes and start melting. Then use a spoon or a spatula and spread it out over the entire candy part.

Set your cookie sheet in the freezer or outside(I put mine in my cold BBQ or in snow) Once its cold you break it up it to small bite size pieces and enjoy! You won't be buying anymore Skor Bars

My next attempt I am going to try 1/2 cup peanut butter and 1/2 cup margarine. If anyone wants to try this let me know how it turns out!

my new hair....

This is me. With my new hair do. Its not styled very well here. I've had it better.

Ok so a few months ago my son was being very annoying (typical 5 year old)

He has a few imaginary friends. Bob and Austin.
Bob is....I don't know....All I know is he has red eyes that glow in the dark.
Austin looks just like Austin and has the same name and everything.

So back to my story...
So he was being his normal most annoying self so I said,
"why don't you go play with Austin"
Austin said " I can't Austin is on vacation, he went on a boat to the beach"
So I was like ok whatever he's just using his imagination.

Well tonight Austin was in the kitchen putting something in the garbage and he was talking about something so I said, "Really?"

HE SAID, " mom, I wasn't talking to you. I was talking to my imaginary friend Austin. He's back from vacation now cause he took another boat"


Maybe he really does see someone.....

Its so weird what kids remember or what they come up with.

My one friend says she still to this day remembers her imaginary friends. They changed their clothes and hair and they were always around. I think its odd but then again I didn't have any imaginary friends. I'm starting to feel left out...