Its getting close

We are now down to 9 days...well....8 days...today is almost over. VACATION! I can't wait.

Its sad tho....Doug is trying to get in as much work as he can before we go. So he didn't even get a chance to come home between trips this time. I SO SAD..........

Bag is almost packed. Still need a few things. Must do laundry the night before we go so my son has clothes to wear... and Doug...lol... Also need to pick up a few necessities...

...like sunscreen, sunglass, and a beach towel.

YES!!! I'm rubbing it in!!!

Ok. So now I have a few things to share.

Our sledding afternoon!

The dog being crazy.

Always a nut job.

And here are some layouts that I've made recently. LOVING the scrapbooking...

my new hair....

This is me. With my new hair do. Its not styled very well here. I've had it better.

Ok so a few months ago my son was being very annoying (typical 5 year old)

He has a few imaginary friends. Bob and Austin.

Bob is....I don't know....All I know is he has red eyes that glow in the dark.

Austin looks just like Austin and has the same name and everything.

So back to my story...

So he was being his normal most annoying self so I said,

"why don't you go play with Austin"

Austin said " I can't Austin is on vacation, he went on a boat to the beach"

So I was like ok whatever he's just using his imagination.

Well tonight Austin was in the kitchen putting something in the garbage and he was talking about something so I said, "Really?"

HE SAID, " mom, I wasn't talking to you. I was talking to my imaginary friend Austin. He's back from vacation now cause he took another boat"

SAY WHAT!?!?!

Maybe he really does see someone.....

Its so weird what kids remember or what they come up with.

My one friend says she still to this day remembers her imaginary friends. They changed their clothes and hair and they were always around. I think its odd but then again I didn't have any imaginary friends. I'm starting to feel left out...

and the countdown begins

2 sleeps until my dad comes. I'm very much looking forward to having Christmas with him. Its been WAY too long. Probably the last Christmas I've spend with my dad was back in 1995! WAY TOO LONG!

4 sleeps until Doug comes home. And with him will be his sister and his mom. I'm excited for them to come. Neither of them have been to our house and we've lived here for 2 years!

7 sleeps until we can open presents. FINALLY it will be over with for another year!

62sleeps until we board the plain for Dalas, 63 sleeps til we leave Dalas and go to Miami and get on a boat for a whole week in the Caribean!!! I CAN'T WAIT!

I'm in the process of knitting my self a tanktop/camisole type shirt. I can't wait until its done! I'll post pics for sure!

We went on a kindergarten field trip today. Interesting.... 5 kindergarten classes with 15-18 kids in it each. We went to the gymnastics club. The kids had a blast so I guess thats what matters.

Other then us having sore throats and runny noses all is good right now....I MUST stay on track next until at least the 24th. Then I can take a few days off. THEN BACK ON TRACK! I'm hoping for at least 10 more pounds lost before vacation.....Well I'd take 10 but I'm aiming for 20! Wish me luck!

very much needs alone time

I'm with children 24/7. Either mine or someone else's. My boyfriend is gone for 14-20 days out of a month and when he is home we have 'family' time. I try to get away even if its just to the grocery store at least once when he is home, but thats not what I want. I want to be able to lay in bed on a Saturday or Sunday and sleep in. I want to be able to read a book in the middle of the day without constant interruption. I want ONE, just one, day a week to myself. Hell I'd take a few hours that I could leave the house or lay on the couch without interruption(and I'm not talking about after Austin is in bed, cause I can't run up to the store or do anything) To be able to go to the bathroom without having someone follow me down the hall and ask what I'm doing. I want to be able to go crawl in to bed at 5pm if I'm not feeling well. I want to be able to clean the kitchen and NOT turn around two minutes later to find my clean counter has been used as a dumping ground for my son's toys, crafts, and shit. I don't want to feel like I'm a maid first, mom/friend/girlfriend last.

I know I'm on the verge of depression. I've felt the cloud hanging there, waiting, for a few months. I need to do something about it. Every time I talk to Doug about it all he says is there is nothing he can do and to go to the doctor. WELL YES there is something he can do. He can damn well get out of bed before noon(when he is home) and take his son somewhere. He can do a friggen load of laundry. He can clean up the kitchen after dinner.

I want to feel like a person again. I don't think I've ever been me. I've always been daughter. Do what mom says or deal with the silent treatment for weeks at a time. (worse punishment ever) Moved out of home to another city in a different province with my boyfriend. I went from dutiful daughter to dutiful girlfriend. I don't think I've ever had a chance to be me. To be young and foolish. To party with my girlfriends. I did party a bit, don't get me wrong, but it was always under the watchful eye of my boyfriend.

I don't know what to do anymore. I fell lost, confused, and overwhelmed with life.

"He's still on vacation...."

Kids say the funniest things sometimes. Or say things that 5 year olds should not be saying. Like....

"That's convenient"

"I'm incapable"

"You're making me cranky mom"

And the funny thing is he knows when and how to use certain words and what they mean. He's only five.

I currently have a day home and take care for 4 kids. Austin gets pretty upset some days when they are all here cause the two 5 year old girls tend to play together and leave him out. Today they were all playing and the girls were play ring-around-the-rosey. WELL....Austin decided that he didn't want to do that and that they should all play cars. The girls didn't want to so he threw a little fit. So I told him to play with "bob" cause he would like to play cars. Now, "bob" is one of Austin's imaginary friends. Austin just looks at me and says "Bob is still on vacation, he's on a beach and had to take a boat to get there". Now where did that come from?

Things have been a bit hectic around here. Preparing for Christmas and family coming is hard. I also have to do it all by myself. Doug went to work on the 4th and won't be home until the 22nd. I hate his job! But there is really nothing I can do. It really sucks. I just have to suck it up and get everything done. Shopping, wrapping, preparing for guests. At least a few people have decided not to come so we don't need to find someplace for them to sleep. I thought it was going to be so jam packed with people in our house.....

My weightloss has not been going very well this last month. I really need to get back on track. The eating hasn't been too bad which is probably the reason for not gaining. But I still need to lose. I've been sitting at 193 for the last few weeks. I really need to get down. I'm hoping to be at least 170 by cruise time. HOPING!!! Thats 20lbs in just under 2 months. I can do it. I just have to get at it. Exercise everyday! AND STICK TO THE DIET! I really am trying but stress some how makes everything go caput!

So tonight, instead of exercising, I spent 3 hours trying to make a button for my blog. I could NOT get it to work. GRRRrrrrr!!! Its very frustrating. Especially when you are following very specific instructions and then.....nothing! Oh well I'll get {mis} adventures to help me in the morn....OR WAIT!!! SHE CAN JUST MAKE ME ONE!!!! since she's an expert at it! ;)

A good start and a bad ending...

Today was interesting to say the least. This morning was awesome. It was quiet and everyone was happy. As the day progressed it just seemed to get worse. "The Boy"refused to eat lunch. Red flad #1. Then he was in preschool all afternoon. When I went to pick him up the teacher tells me he fell off the swing and scratched his cheek and cut his lip. Red flag #2. So we come home and everything seemed to be fine. He played outside, rode his bike, and everything was good. We had dinner and he complained but that was the norm. Then back outside he went and rode his bike some more but he fell off and hurt his elbow. Now for a 4 year old this is something that just happens. But for mine red flag #3 was that he carried on about it for 45 minutes. So by this time I am getting frustrated and just want him to go to sleep and leave me alone. So we get the elbow all bandaged up and give him a very quick bath. Then I get him to lay down on the couch. He was asleep by 7pm. I put him in his bed and by 9pm he was awake and in the bathroom puking! YUCK! Just what I want to deal with at this point. He made 3 trips in 20 minutes just go pee. A sign of the body flushing out a bug. By 10 I got him back into bed and asleep but have stayed up making sure it doesn't happen again. Over the last year or so I find myself not hearing him in the middle of the night. So its been a rough evening. Somewhere during the day I've found time to take some pictures and I think a few have turned out. Night...

the mouse

Last night I decided to put out a few traps for our little visitor. I had seen him under the stove so I put some sticky paper traps under the edge of the stove. Well, apparently it was pretty dusty and dirty under there. I put the traps right at the edge. Just far enough in so that the cats wouldn't get their paws stuck to it. This morning I got up and took a look and I couldn't find the traps. So I started checking that cats making sure they didn't get it stuck to their long hair....

Right now I'm picture my cat, Kao, stuck to a fly trap. It was sitting in the window sill and he jumped up and got it stuck to his fur. Well he couldn't get it off and the more he tried the more stuck it got. Then he went running down the hall with it stuck to his belly between his legs. (Laughing out loud right now) I had to catch him and RIP it off his fur. I felt bad but it had to be done...

Okay. Sorry for the detour. So I found the cats and nothing. So I figure I should pull the stove out and see what's under there. ALOT of mouse crap, some hotwheels, a few marbles, some fridge magnets, and ALOT of dust bunnies. And of course my mouse traps where under there. Moved. They were covered in dust bunnies and mouse crap. SO, I figure that the mouse got stuck when it ran across but there was so much dust under there that it made the paper not so sticky and the mouse was on there long enough to crap itself and then get away.

So this morning I spent an hour cleaning under the stove and the sides of the stove and cupboards. Man I'm a messy cook...

So on another note...
The weather is great. My weekend sunburn is pretty much gone. I've decided to try a new route to getting my son to listen. In the last month he has started these fits. Every time you say no he starts crying and screaming. And its complete put on and fake. So I've decided that every time one of these fits happen I am taking 15 minutes off his bed time. I'll give it a week and see how it works.

Well I'm off til later when I come on to post my picture.